“

later that night
i held an atlas in my lap
ran my fingers across the whole world
and whispered
where does it hurt?

 

it answered 
everywhere
everywhere
everywhere.

”

—

Warsan Shire I think today was the first time that I almost cried in anticipation for your departure. I hate how one moment there's intimacy between us and then it's like we're strangers. My mood was high and then you came and now it's so low I'm choking. I have other problems you know. Other little concerns that gnaw the inside of my mind. Fears and thoughts I never discuss with anybody. And all you ever do is choke me. I talk and smile And I feel as if I'm not breathing. Sometimes I feel as if I'm not even there. I miss you and you were never even there.