Theory #11: Chances. You miss one and you regret it much longer than it took you to lose it.

Chances come and go in life. They come in flashes and disappear just as fast. We might catch them or we may lose them forever. Some we regret ad other we forget. But what if missing small chances in the end equals to missing a big one? 

  The party. I knew you wanted me to stay longer. Maybe it's just me but I kind of felt it. Laugh if you may. But that's what I felt.
  Today you looked sad. Later I saw you were online on Facebook. I wanted to ask you if everything was alright but I hesitated too much and now I've missed my chance.
  Am I a fool? I must be. See, I've wasted so many chances with you. There might even be nothing between us now. I just can't help myself. 

 

The truth is, I've fallen for you.
  Hard.

Theory #10: More often than not, we let people down.

  It is done unconciously, but not necessarily so. You know there will be conciquences, you know they will be disappointed, you know you'll lose something in the end. Someone. And you know you can prevent it but at that moment you don't care to do so.
  What happens next?
  How do you face it all?
  Well, I guess the show must go on.

 
    But I care, and I am disappointed and I want you to be there. But I'm let down, and I am so concentrated on protecting myself that I let everyone else down.
  And I'm sick of always being that person who has potential but is no good.

  My aunt once told me, when I spoke to her, "Emilia, of all the people I know, you're better than them. You're the best of them all."
  Those words stung in more ways than she can know.

I think that was the sound of my heart breaking

I really do.
It doesn't hurt as bad as I think it does, right? It's all in my head, yeah that's what it all is. It doesn't hurt as bad, it doesn't hurt as bad. Maybe if I say it enough times I will believe it.Maybe if I wish it away I'll will it away. Maybe I'll get you out from under my skin.
No theories today.

"You make me wanna sing about love even though you don't want to know"