There are those days when everything is good
and easy
and busy
and then I spend some time alone
and when it all washes away
I still feel
like a stranger in my skin.
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31.10.13
29.10.13
Too
My whole life
I've always felt like I'm too much.
Too emotional
Too cold
Too loud
Too quiet
Too close
Too far
Too fat
Too obscure
Too grotesque
Too arrogant
Too proud
Too insecure
Too clingy
Too distant.
Too overwhelming.
I feel like I'm neither here
nor there
always in the inbetween
Always a shadow
About to drift.
I've always felt like I'm too much.
Too emotional
Too cold
Too loud
Too quiet
Too close
Too far
Too fat
Too obscure
Too grotesque
Too arrogant
Too proud
Too insecure
Too clingy
Too distant.
Too overwhelming.
I feel like I'm neither here
nor there
always in the inbetween
Always a shadow
About to drift.
25.10.13
Country
It is not fair.
I fucking left the country
and everyday I think of you.
But then again
we have not been in the same country for some time now.
Wonder why I thought it's make
any difference
at
all.
I fucking left the country
and everyday I think of you.
But then again
we have not been in the same country for some time now.
Wonder why I thought it's make
any difference
at
all.
22.10.13
Pretend
I just want to lie on my bed
and pretend
that you still want me.
Sometimes I still repeat in my head
that moment
under the covers
when you gently pulled me from the hips closer
and just placed your chest against my back
and buried your face in my hair
and your hand seeked my hand
and ignored the world and the morning light.
and pretend
that you still want me.
Sometimes I still repeat in my head
that moment
under the covers
when you gently pulled me from the hips closer
and just placed your chest against my back
and buried your face in my hair
and your hand seeked my hand
and ignored the world and the morning light.
20.10.13
Paranoia
I know I've reached another level of paranoia
when everytime I start to draw
I still only want to paint
in colours that you can see.
when everytime I start to draw
I still only want to paint
in colours that you can see.
16.10.13
14.10.13
Control
I'm in room
putting away stuff,
tidying up.
Small actions
that make me feel more
putting away stuff,
tidying up.
Small actions
that make me feel more
in control.
Less
in pieces.
13.10.13
*
"If you leave
you're never
coming back.
Your mother knows this.
Your father will despair."
Or so my cousin said.
I wondered
whether it is so obvious
so plain and bared to see
you're never
coming back.
Your mother knows this.
Your father will despair."
Or so my cousin said.
I wondered
whether it is so obvious
so plain and bared to see
my anxiety to leave.
11.10.13
Virginia
“I just miss you,
in a quite
simple
desperate
human
way.”
in a quite
simple
desperate
human
way.”
— | Vita Sackville-West, Excerpt from a letter to Virginia Woolf |
9.10.13
Silence *
If you think I don't see what you're doing there
you're right
I'm not.
Dammit don't ask me to message you when online
then disappear on me
go silent on me
for a month
with few
short
excuciatinlgy so
talks.
Doesn't change how I feel you know.
Does it change how you feel?
Is it even concious?
Nevermind the questions.
All that speaks
all I hear
is the silence.
(Sad to see you go)
I've started hoping that you'd stay
(Didn't we both know)
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day
Crawling back to you
Ever thought of calling when you've had a few?
'Cause I always do
I've started hoping that you'd stay
(Didn't we both know)
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day
Crawling back to you
Ever thought of calling when you've had a few?
'Cause I always do
5.10.13
Pauses
When I pause
and reflect
on what I feel
what I do
I realise
how foolish it is
how foolish I am.
I head straight into things
not caring
if I crush my skull.
Let me pause this moment for while
ok?
Let me freeze them in place.
Let me not forget.
Let me get another shot at this
some time in a year.
Let me get a shot at you.
and reflect
on what I feel
what I do
I realise
how foolish it is
how foolish I am.
I head straight into things
not caring
if I crush my skull.
Let me pause this moment for while
ok?
Let me freeze them in place.
Let me not forget.
Let me get another shot at this
some time in a year.
Let me get a shot at you.
3.10.13
Fears
I've always been afraid
that all the attraction between us
was just that:
we filled the holes
each other had
in his soul.
2.10.13
Rain
Back then I knew why I was crying
Don't know
why I'm crying now,
what there is to let out.
I'm just letting them fall
and hope the rain outside
could somehow wash away
the dust inside my soul,
not just the streets.
I just need to cry something out
from inside.
Don't know
why I'm crying now,
what there is to let out.
I'm just letting them fall
and hope the rain outside
could somehow wash away
the dust inside my soul,
not just the streets.
I just need to cry something out
from inside.
1.10.13
Right?
You and I
are gonna be alright,
you know that right?
(Seperate we already are,
forgotten I already am,
I hope you're ok).
But in case you're not alright
I won't know
when we don't speak.
You know that right?
are gonna be alright,
you know that right?
(Seperate we already are,
forgotten I already am,
I hope you're ok).
But in case you're not alright
I won't know
when we don't speak.
You know that right?
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