Theory #9: People need not words or fists to hurt you

Sometimes silence is enough.

  I hate this. I hate this so much. School has started and I'm generally happy. One of my friends thinks that's because I see you.

But I see you and we rarely talk and when we do it's more like a hi or something. But I've caught you looking and maybe I'm paranoid  and I just want you to speak to me. 

Noise, noise, noise, anything but this excrusiating silence. 

Please, if this is all isnot in my head do something. And if it is I just want it to stop. This is driving me crazy. I'm up and down all the time and that's not your fault, it's probably mine but you mess my head up whether you want to or not.  

Maybe I'm just being stupid and a coward you know?

Theory #8: We have the tendecy to choose the people we know things won't work out with

We have the tendecy to be interested into people that are for one reason or another unavailable. Or perhaps available but still people with whom things wouldn't work out. And we think "Well, what are the chances?" And in some ways we enter the game as losers.
  Is that because of the human longing for what one cannot have?
  Or is it a defensive action? Perhaps we fall for the wrong people but we go for them ready to get hurt, with our walls high and inpenetrable. We have a reason, an excuse to be cowards and not really fight. What are the chances? And therefore not really really get hurt.
  
  If I sit down and think about, and I have done that so I would know, the people I have fallen for over the time are the people I know nothing is going to happen with them. Like that guy. Mean as it may sound I knew from the headstart that there was no way we ended up together. 
  Because guys like him don't fall for girls like me.

What are the chances?

  Or the brother of that girl that I'm sort of getting to be friends with. The younger brother. Like 3 years younger. I'm nearly an adult by the way. And I really want the Brother to be interested in me. Even though I know that like hell he will. Even if he were...

  But maybe if that is so, then maybe we're the biggest losers of them all.

  None of them really suited me. Well, with the exception of Brother. But, well. Too many complications.

  It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.
- Alfred Lord Tennyson

  Have we been too preoccupied to play defensive to ever play offensive?