Future plans

For the first time
I felt the need
to put a piece of you,
the piece with my heart,
in all that I do
the gestures of all that I am,
to honour you
and also let you go.
Like an exorcism
only I am able to perform
to set free
all that I hold.

I've put in motion
every piece of me
and a new plan has evolved
so that we don't often meet.
I only hope,
though I crave you still,
that if I keep cutting
somehow
somehow
it will not pain me more
to never have the chance
your presence in my life to keep.
I cut
and cut away
hoping that no connection will be left
though the silence suffocates in its grip
and I want to tell you all
but you have other problems to resolve
and I dare not
burden you
furthermore.